Gosh, been so long. First of all, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
*warning... long post*

i'll start...

Tues 14- Aarons funeral was held early in the afternoon, so people who wanted to go had to bring a note to leave school early and already be dressed. I left for it and followed Misty to the church. It was a pretty small church and was packed. People were standing in the back (b/c of the long long line in) and I almost had to stand but when the family came in, there was some room so I got to sit... It was a really sad service, but done really well. I THINK that some of the basketball team MAY have been the pallbearers, not really sure. it was such a big line that I couldn't see them, but they were the first ones to leave the church, before the family. It kinda made me depressed and I was depressed when I got home. It was so surreal.

Wed-last day of school (I had no exams) and I gave gifts to my fave teachers. I was gonna make cards for my friends, but there were so many people I wanted to give cards to that I just didn't. In french was fun b/c it was extended because of Vocats testing and we have a chocolate day. Mme. made chocolate fondue (there was a table of food) and we watched CHOCOLAT (with Johnny Depp...yummy).

Thurs- went to school around 1 to pick up the aaron shirt. The basketball team made shirts in memory of aaron and the money raise will go to two charities that his parents picked out.

Sat- play practice at the church at 10. we were practicing for the annual chirstmas play and I was Mimi, the city cousin in CHRISTMAS IN CRICKET COUNTY. Its about city cousins who go to the country to hear the will of their uncle who died. They are spoiled and selfish while the country cousins are backwards but kind. It is also a funny play, i wish you guys could read the script. At 3 oclock I had to come back for choir practice and at 7oclock my family went to Boone b.c my dads work was having a christmas party at a hotel. It was really nice and the raffled gifts to the workers (my dad won this electronic tape measureing thingy..) and all the kids of the workers got a stocking or santas hat fun of candy and a wal-mart car for 10 dollars (well i think the older kids like me got the walmart card and the little ones got stuffed animals instead or somehting). I had fun and there was this REALLY REALLY HOT guy who worked there that I may of checked out...hah. He was tall with American Eagle Model type hair..hehe. But I was with my dad.. ugh.

Sunday- Us in Choir sang the chirstmas songs for most of the service and when we were leaving got little treat bags, yum. Then I had to be at hte church at 3 to practice for the chirstmas play. then at 7 it started. Since we are busy, debbie didn;t make us memorize lines and we had a little script with us. so we read and acted and it went bad when Mark lost his place and cameron jumped over to find it and he turned back to the beging and mark read it, and it was soo out of where we were at that we jsut sat there for a minute, embarrased and about to laugh. THEN at this part, MARK FARTED! he FARTED!! anhd it was before I had to go over to him, so I was tlaking to him and laughing. I also had a part where my character ends up in the woods and gets chased by a bear. So I am on the other side of the fake window and have to run across and scream (which I can only scream loud, meaning I sounded like a banshee) and Benjy had the deer head and made it look like it was running after me.. it was funny, lol. All in all we made alot of mistakes, but it was still funny.
AFTERWARDS, there was a party in the fellowship hall. We had lots of goodies and then they gave out gifts. See, I wasn't there around christmas last year and had NO idea that they do that. I was embarrassed b.c I had nothing to give cause I didn;t know so I was about to leave and then I kept getting gifts! And I was like. OH. Crap. I have nothing. Nada. Zilch. to give. Why didn't anyone tell me!! But anyway, I got alot of great presents, I love my church. Next year, when I come back for college I will get those people something!!

I'll skip to Weds, when I went to the mall. Me mom and grandma. I didn't want grandma to come b/c she is such a burden and wouldn't do anything, but my mom knew I really wanted to go so she said she will watch grandma. The parkinglot was CROWDED!!! I drove around for like 5, 6, 7 mins and when I got to where I started this car was backing out, YES YES. So later I was shopping and I was sooo tried!! The shoes I were wearing were not comfy for so long and they made my feet ache and i couldnt' concintrate.. so I know I prob missed good sales (next time I will wear flip flops, my shopping shoes, even if it it the dead of wither!!). There wasn't really good sales, I bought present for my best friend kara in sc at Charlotte Russe. thats the only present I got, I didn't know what to get everyone else! at AMerican EAgle, I got this awsome purse, charlotte Russe: this awsome scarf..(im in love) , Abercrombie: Abercrombie 8 perfume, book at Waldens, Hollister: shirt, PacSun: shirt. I can't believe I went to the mall and only got TWO shirts!! something was wrong with me..lol! I wanted to get funny stickers or something to put in the cards I was sending, but the line was ridiculously long and finally I gave up. On the way out, I practically knocked this hot guy out with my big American Eagle bag.. *sigh*.

Thursday- went to post office. I fell bad b/c I am sending only cards to my friends, I wish I could send something more but it can't send packages (my mom would ask 50 questions) and I could only send a package to my BFF. SO i was like, okay, I will send it overnight, but lo and behold, it cost 13 DOLLARS to send a LETTER express and was like..oop, They will get it in a while cause I can't fork out taht much. and as for Kara's package... 21 DOLLARS for EXPRESS!!! holly cow! thats about how much her gift cost. I already got her gift she sent to me, so i feel bad b.c she will get it after christmas...
*sigh* for this is why christmas makes me depressed. sorry guys...

By today, I ACTUALLY GOT something for my parents, can you believe it?!?! I think they will like it.. I feel a teensy bit better... but just a teensy..

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

*~*Felicia*~*
8:57 PM |

Monday, December 13, 2004

Um..okay, I think I need to continue from Friday. My sister came this weekend so I didn't have time to blog or do really anything online.....

Friday, leaving western civ, I passed the lobby where there was a huge banner stretching across for people to sign for Aaron. During 2nd, my teacher let us go sign it. I had no idea what ot say and asked (whispered) what happened to Aaron. turns out, he tried to kill himself by shooting himself in the head. Yea, I was shocked. I remember he sat in front of me in Beta Club and I was just thinking, I didn't know he would be in beta club.. and he was on the basketball team...I didn't know what to write b/c I have never talked to aaron. I thought back to when the principal was on the announcements. this girl emily (who i am now thinking is a cold harded bitch) laughed when principal said aarons name. LAUGHED!!! Who the hell laughs at a situation like that. she said something else when she laughed.. and she is in my class and i think she needs to be smacked hard!
continuing... our principal came on the announcements and said there are counselors in the media center if anyone wanted to talk. lots of people were not in the clss and in the halls and with the doors shut I could still hear people walking by and sobbing... It was just a bad day and it was raining...I think my teacher is just an idiot. yes, she just let us watch a movie, but it was Frankenstein! which has a death motif and it shows a brain being shattered and it was an awful choice for us to watch in our situation...
We didn't want to go to the middle school and sing at first, but the other option was sitting in the room staring at each other, so it was a good way to leave the heaviness of the school behind for a little. I rode mandy, melissa, and amber and we stopped to each at bojangles before going ot the middle school.
When we went back for first period, my french teacher basically let us do nothing (the people who had to take the exams just did their work). She made hot water so we could drink cocoa or cappachinos. burned my tounge... it felt weird in class. I know alot of the school had checked out and i felt like my class was secluded, like we were the only ones in the school, though people walked by, it was so quiet and... just odd..

My sister came for the weekend, on sat, and we rented some movies that night. Sunday Morning I had to go to mrs. mayes's chruch b/c ensemble had to sing in the morning service so I had to be there at 10:30am. when I got there, I found out that Aaron had died later Friday.....i didn't expect his to live b/c of how he shot himself.. he couldn't of live like that. the concert was sad, Jenny and Amy sang amazing grace first and Belinda beside me and others started crying. We dedicated the performance to Kevin, who was a member of that church and was in the hospital b/c he had cancer again... It was just a really sad concert.
Just Pray that Aarons family can get through this...

*~*Felicia*~*
7:55 AM |

Friday, December 10, 2004

I'm in Western Civ right now. It was really weird when I got to school. I was late and I thought everyone would be in the Cyber room. As I was walking to through the media center I saw a few guys from my first period sitting on the couches looking sad. When I got in the room, there were more empty seats and something felt weird so I asked the teacher why the guys were in the media center and she said they were upset... okay.. i had no idea what happened. Then the teacher ordered us out of class and on TV was the principal with a broadcast to the school. He was crying and saying if anyone needed someone to talk to.... And then I found out that this guy aaron was in some sort of accident (mandy said whispered what happened as the principal was talking so I missed it. But Aaron is in baptist hospital which is very bad b/c it is the big hospital in Winston-Salem so I know his condition is critical. I pray that aaron will pull through..

To a lighter note, I recieved a little package/card from magie yesterday which I was happy to recieve. She got me a penguin w/ candy cane (it looks yummy! lol) and an italian charm bracelet w/ a sandle in it already (which I am wearing now..heh). I thought it was so weird she had gotten that b/c I had wanted it and was ready to buy it... so it was a good thing to buy I didn't! i can't wait to buy charms for it (hmm.. need a soccer one, music note, etc. etc..lol)
THANKS MAGIE!!!

I still need to send out christmas cards! And I need to christmas shop today..ahhhggghhhhg. My sister is supposedly coming this weekend for Jason and I need a present for her and jason and angelo.. ah.

I bought an MVP card at hollywood video. For 10 dollar per 30 days, i can rent unlimited movies there, which is awsome!! my sister does blockbuster and theirs is around 24 dollars a month and only 2 movies out at a time, so I think I got the better deal, lol. But lots of the movies I want are not out yet.. boo. Maybe soon they will be (i wonder when Wimbledon out yet?? I wanted to see that so bad!

In 3rd, Ensemble is singing at the middle school. Out teacher will only let 4 people drive and so i don't get to drive (even though at first she said SENIORS but 3 seniors plus her are driving and when she got to me it was too late..boo) so I am riding with scott and his girlfriend, which I would prefer not to cause I we will eat before we go out and I don't wanna be the third wheel. Maybe I can get Eli to ride with us...

Magie have a safe flight and have fun with your family!! Don't forget to blog often (which I am bad at..lol)

later.

(p.s. the band teacher didn't find out..lol)

*~*Felicia*~*
8:11 AM |

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

hm.. it has been a while. I guess I will start on Nov 30, tuesday. my birthday. I'm 18 now.. how odd!
When I got home, I saw my birthday cake, it was perrrrfect. The day before I had gone to Lowes to order it. I asked them to make the beach and was so excited when I saw it b/c the lady made waves in teh ocean with the icing and put a sail boat, palm trees, a beach chair, and shells. It was soo cute!! My favorite cake ever. Then around 5 we went to eat at Ryans, me, mom, dad, lil Jason, and my grandma. I swear my nephew is obsessive about cakes. He kept going ON AND ON AND ON about that cake of mine. We had to tell him a million times that there was also cake at Ryans but he wanted my cake (he still had cake at Ryans). When we got home, Jason was going crazy about the cake again. I didn't want to cut it, it was so perfect!! And I was taking along time and Jason started crying and acting up b/c the cake wasn't cut. I never knew how spoiled he was until he came here, omg. He calmed down when I gave him the sail boat on the cake. Later, I finally cut the cake, though I didn't want to. My parents gave me a card with 300 dollars in it. 200 from my dad and 100 from my grandma.. well, my dad had told her about my birthday (she never even mentioned it when we went to dinner) and since he has power of attorney and legal guardianship of her, he told her he was gonna write a check for her... Honestly, my grandma never had a great relationship. She didn't even remember my birthday, it was really my dad in that part. I am not sure what my mom got me.. she did wash and clean the inside of my car yesterday and bought my cake, so I think that was her gift. I got some gifts from friends and i think my aunt will prob (if she even) send me a check or something near christmas. I don't think she has my birthday marked, so she usually sends me a check between my birthday and christmas. I hate how close my birthday is to christmas.

Also tues morning my research paper was due, I felt so much better turning it in!!!!!!!!!!!! (btw, I got it back yesterday.. i got a 96!!!)

and cant remember anything till... Friday.in Ensemble, we sang at the Elks Lodge during lunch and then went to wendys to eat after (cause there is nasty food there). I was depressed during the week b/c when janette left, my sore throat got worse and I cou;dn't sing, and i loved lots of the songs!! Ave Maria, God Rest You Merry Gentleman...... And during the week I drank hot lemon water with honey for my thraot and had throat breezers, but on Fri, I still had to lipsinc b/c Nothing would come out when I tried to hit the high notes... ugh... that sucked!

Sunday was the christmas concert, where ensemble and chorus were put together (which we in ensemble hated b/c chorus didn't know lots of the words and were out of tune).. I was in front and was so embarrassed b/c I had to fake high notes...bummer.
After the concert, I went home and changed and went to church for play practice.

I woke up Monday and Voila! My throat doesn't hurt anymore. NOW it is fine... grrr.. I still have two more things to sing at, so at least i will be better for those.

Today in ensemble was fun. Her eis the situation. chorus/ensemble and band is taught in the same room. Mrs. mayes teaches for the first 3 periods in there and band is 4th period by the other teacher. the room is covered in band stuff and we don't really like the band *cult*, well Jenny in ensemble is in band, but she doesn't like the teacher/some people either.
So there we were. just chatting away when we saw troy swinging on this bar contraption and when ms. mayes saw him, was like get on troy! But he stayed on so she was like "When the band teacher comes i, you better get off. He is very particular about everything. Then we laughed about how funny it would be if Troy got caught in the hooks and sure enough, Troy got his belt caught and he was hanging down by his belt. When he went straight ways, he looked like steve urkle. Erin still had her camera, so we were in hysterics and telling Troy to wait so we could take pictures nad Troy moved his arms and legs like he was flying and then straightened so Erin could get a picture of his but, where his jeans were pulled way up high. After Erin took pictures, Troy was helped out. He had a red mark around him from his belt. Then they checked back and saw the took was bent and Troy was trying to righten it and ms. mayes bet him 20 dollars that the band teacher would notice...lol

eventful day, huh?

*~*Felicia*~*
5:03 PM |

Sunday, November 21, 2004

I have no idea when to start... maybe On weds the 17th?. I Found out I got accepted to USC. I was so excited when I got that big packet and jumped around and called my sister and kara, who is going also. I was soo freaking excited, but didn't want my dad to come home b/c I knew he would pop my happy bubble. Sure enough... when he got home, he was like "are you excited?".. of course I was! but I was all calm and THEN my dad started going in on the cost, and how it would be nice if I went to community college for two years and everything and then was like "but its up to you" which meant "I want you to go to the community college".

I am so sick of starting in the middle of things. If I got to community college and transfer to USC for my third year, I will be SOO out of it. While everyone started new as a freshman and know the strings by the 3rd year, I will be struggling and lost. I am so sicccckkk of that. I want to start fresh like everyone else! I want the experience. I wanna be at the same level as everyone. And I wanted to maybe study abroad my 3rd year, which I couldnt' if I transfered. I also don't wanna be here for another two years..ahh.

That friday Jason (not my nephew jason, a friend) came over after hunting. He didn't find any deer and had been out all day. I haven't seen him in a while since he goes to the community college. oddly enough, he is majoring in psychology and i think he is hard to read himself. I just think it is odd that a person like him who likes to party and dresses head to toe in abercrombie also loves the outdoors and hunting and stuff. When i first meet him I never would have thought HE would hunt. Jason said I should go hunting with him..yeah right. Like i could sit in the woods forever waiting for bambi to show up to get shot *rolls eyes*

bump up to monday 22nd. I turned un my bibliography, and on tuesday my teacher gave back out rough drafts. she took FOREVER on mine and i had to come back at second break to get mine and she was on her phone, talking about damn yearbook, so I didn't get to ask questions. On my sheet she said I was doing great and have lots of examples and I just needed to put in stuff from other sources. I found out that the paper is not due mon, but due tues.. my birthday..:(. oh well.

On Thurs, THanksgiving, my dad, mom, grandma, and me went to a family friends of ours. My grandma's old friend and her daughter invited us over for thanksgiving. it was nice and we don't have turkey left over,yay. I tried pecan pie for the first time and actually liked it.:)

Friday. I should have done my paper and edited it, but I felt bad earlier that day. I couldn't sleep b/c I was tossing and turning and my thoat hurt bad. Around 11 is when i looked at the clock and couldn't believe it b/c i was still dead tired. I got up and my body was aching and my throat hurt and i tried to eat, but had to pour out half of my cereal. I got better later that day after 5. I also wasn't sure if my sister was coming and the more i thought she wasn't coming, the more i put ot off for that night. We kept calling and my sister wasn't answering so we figured she was avoiding us... but later around 7 I was talking to Carla and telling her how pissed I was and then low and behold, I heard a car and my sister was here! She tried to surprise us. She meant to get up and leave at NINE am but she didn't leave till 3...... She wanted it to be a surprise..but she kinda still should have left earlier...!

The next day....We wanted to watch a movie and looked online and the only one that looked good was Bridget Jones Diary, The edge of reason. I had taped the first one on my DVR, so I played it for Janette to see if she would like it to go and see the second part.. Then we went to wal-mart, mom, sis, jason, and me.. to get some stuff. Janette forgot to get socks for Jason b/c he is staying a week with us and we just shopped for stuff and grabbed bojangles on the way, which i was upset about b/c of my new diet. but i got the chicken supremes b/c they aren't as bad as the chicken pieces and potatoes and such. When we got home, we finished watching bridget jones diary and then since we still had time for the 4:30 movie, we watching 2 weeks Notice (also on my DVR) which has Hugh Grant and Sandra Bullock.. which is also a funny movie. When it was over, my sister and I hurried and gussied up b/c I wanted to get pictures of us for my senior page in the year book. well, we ended up posing for longer than we out to off, b/c when i looked at the time, it was 4:12 and it takes around 30 mins to get to that theater so we couldn't make it. We were gonna go se he 7:40 show, but it weas to long away so we decided to go to town and rent a movie. So Janette and I went. There was nothiung really good out. She saw something or I saw something already. I wanted to see shrek, but she had already seen it and little jason had seen it a lot of times already..so we ended up renting Jersey Girl and Harry Potter and the Prizoner of Azkaban. Once we got home, we made popcorn and smoothies and went to watch Jersey Girl. It was pretty cute, altho I thought Liv Tyler and Ben Affleck would have more interaction. I didn't know Jersey Girl was more about his daughter. Then, after it was done, to bring out movie count to FOUR, I also had my Big Fat Greek Wedding on my DVR, so we watched THAT. I swear, the way the mom on that movie pushed food is how my mom pushed food on everyone else.lol. My mom came in and laughed alot in the movie. It was after 10 when it was done and i took a shower and went to watch harry potter for a little and went to be after.

Today... while my sister was taking a shower, I watched the rest of Harry Potter. I was a little disappointed on the movie. They are wearing muggle clothes most of the time and not their robes and there was like one quidditch scene!! did I miss it or something?? it was supposed to be the one where griffindor won the quidditch cup!! that game wasn't on the film which pissed me off, its the essential thing!! ahhh. I also didn't like the new feel to it. It wasn't great like the other 2 movies, that new director sucks!!!...

moving on...

after lunch janette and i aimlessly played connect four. then we grabbed my digital camera and took a million pics of both of us together. lol. we looked ridiculous and when i liekd one pic, she hated it and vice versa. She also gave me my birthday gift, a good charlotte cd and 20 bucks. I was wanting it at wal-mart and had no idea she got it! i was with her in line too and she said when i turned around for a second she snuck it in.She was good, lol. but yay, i probably wouldn't have bought it for myself...:)

And then she left... and so I am here now. I need to work on my paper, but knew i needed to blog. UGH, i dont wanna do this paper... also.. i haven't returned my libary books from the college. I hope the charge isn't that bad. :(

*~*Felicia*~*
11:41 PM |

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